February 2009
12 posts
“Relationships of all kinds are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with...”
January 2009
57 posts
Give me life.
havent-got-a-prayer:
Give me strangers with beautiful features. Give me scenery sewn together with cityscapes and building lights. Give me streets filled with possibilities and days that overflow with passion. Give me the good and give me the bad. I want it all, to soak it in and breathe it out. Give me thoughts to make me evolve, before this cocoon becomes all that I know. Give me water and...
I haven't cried like that in the LONGEST time.
Passion iced tea/Seestar/Heavyweight, you are honestly such a HUGE blessing that i am oh so thankful for. Yes, we have been through the drama, and the hard times, but you are right. In the end, it only makes us stronger. And lately, we have been stronger then EVER. It has been hard seeing you cry, seeing you go through what you have to go through but it makes me so happy to see you overcome all...
incoherent, but a piece of who I was.
havent-got-a-prayer:
Since the time I was a kid, I have surrounded myself with older people. I was an adolescent sitting in a room of thirty-year olds. My first sexual relationship, when I was a little twelve year old child, was with a girl three years older than me. My first serious relationship was with a woman who was almost five years older than me. The majority of my friends at that...
Praying for a safe recovery...
I hope last night gave you at least a little bit of hope that you’re going to be okay. I know your family is a BITCH for completely kicking you to the curb while you are too weak to stand on your own and that you have nowhere else to go. but, i hope that last night showed you that I am not going anywhere, and that i dont plan on leaving anytime soon. I got you every step of the way. I hate...
a shard of my humanity.
havent-got-a-prayer:
I often worry too much about taking care of others, and in turn end up neglecting myself. Sometimes it’s the other way around. I talk too much when I get excited and leave my sentences unfinished. I curse like a sailor, and most of the time I don’t even realize it. I seek approval some days, because I feel too weak to find it in myself. When something feels too...
I promise
I promise that no matter what, through whatever obstacles may arise, through ANYTHING, i will always fight for you. I will always be here for you. I will love you despite any stupid mistakes, or fumbles you may go through. I will be your ultimate cheerleader, supporting you through every decision you make.
This goes for you too. Always.
“Love is tha quiet understanding & mature acceptance of imperfection . It is...”
“I don’t want you to be just another guy that’s a chapter in my...”
To All the Sad Hearted Girls
“Here’s to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller id the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day...
1/24/09
This day, for the most part, turned out well. I didn’t go to ice skating night, which was kind of a let down, but i had a pretty bomb ass quesadilla that pretty much made up for it :)
Me, Arman, and Sunshine watched Milk at the West Portal theatre and it was pretty amazing. Everyone should go out and watch it, i nearly cried. It was a very powerful movie, and super touching. I’d...
“I’m not miserable, but I’m not happy. I’m not strong, but I’m not weak. I’m not...”
– (via littlemiss)
Ughh.
I hate people who think that they can get whatever they want. Get over yourself.
You’re nothing to me. you’re a speck of dust in the corner of my room that i dont even wanna bother to touch. You’re more then nothing to me. You don’t even exist to me. You’re not even worth being called nothing because you’d still be considered a name. I hate you.
“If you’re convinced that you’re not good enough, you’ll have a hard time letting...”
– (via littlemiss) (via livesophia)
It’s so true. (via kara)
100% Lindsay endorsed. Repeat after me: You’re the best! Around!
(via lindsayneedscoffee)
you’re the best you’re the best you’re the best you’re the best
(via fishy) (via saintnate)
Dream
So the other night i had a dream about my mom having breast cancer again, this time on her other breast. It was one of the saddest dreams of my life. I seriously felt like crying when i woke up, only to realize that my mom is okay and most certainly does not have cancer again. But honestly, i think this was God’s way of telling me that I really need to appreciate her more. Cause, yeah, we...
“Love is a puzzle. You’re frantically trying to put together the pieces to find...”
– (via littlemiss)
Another thing..
And even though i can get so mad at you, there’s no denying inside that i love you so much.
Damn. I really do.
My week in a nutshell..
SENIOR SECOND SEMESTER SCHEDULE:
Mods 1-8: OFF 9/10: CVE 11/12: Lit and Philospohy 14/15: AP Econ 16/17: Physiology
So basically, i start at 11am and end at 2:20pm pretty much every single day. Being a senior is GRRRRREAT :)
So i started off second semester, getting high at my house. Nice way to start it off right? Hahahaha, that was cool tho since i haven’t felt that high in a while :)
...
Extravagance, Part 1
havent-got-a-prayer:
There are certain things that I miss about being in love. I miss having someone to say good morning to when I wake up and goodnight to before I fall asleep. I miss holding someone’s hand and having silences that aren’t awkward one bit. I miss spontaneous kisses and thinking up compliments that fit. I miss being reminded of a special person when I see little things that...
this is how we break. (part 2)
havent-got-a-prayer:
Dreams denied and daytime disappointment. Phone calls from the one you wish was not in your life, and not a word from the one who you wish was. Rain that falls only for a second and blue skies that burn with fire. Streetlights to swallow up security; car seats to bed your shame. Crumpled paper with lengthy To-do’s. Coffee stains on morning journals. A beautiful face to...
My Personal Letter To The Children Of This New Day
havent-got-a-prayer:
darthdream:
For The Children who are filling the shoes that I once walked in, this moment is for you.
2009 is your new beginning.
May you understand the importance of the next 4(8) years, and realize when you are older, that anything truly is possible. For me and my generation, the last 8 years has marked very troubling times that will stay with us for a very long time,...
Wasting my worries away...
With some lunch and my Sex and the City DVD :)
If i could say anything..
I’d just tell you that i love you. I’m here for you. I know i can’t do much, but im trying. And i hate saying that, because in reality, there are a bunch of things i can do. I’m sorry. I wish i could remove every single bit of pain that you feel. That’s all.
Making someone feel loved
saintnate:
shegoesbam:
Making someone feel loved can be achieved by the simplest of methods, but they must come at precisely the right time.
Tell her you love her.
‘OK,’ you say to your self, ‘that’s sounds easy enough.’ It is easy, really. But remember to tell her you love her not only while you are being happy together, but when you are being sad together too. Or best of all, when you...
“I hate wanting to help someone, but not knowing how.”
“There are two tragedies in life: One is not getting your heart’s desire,...”
– Nicole’s away message
Whoopdee FUCKIN doo.
So my mom’s back. Did i mention she left for 3 fucking days to Mexico, didn’t say goodbye, and didn’t even leave me money for food? What kind of mother does that? Do you honestly expect me to just confine myself to this goddamn house the whole time while you’re gone? Because that’s just RIDICULOUS. So, of course, my auntie goes ratting me out, telling me how much...
thoughts.
havent-got-a-prayer:
Days will come and go. Both happiness and despair are fleeting, and chances are that what you are feeling in this moment will not be present by tomorrow. At the time, an emotion may seem like the only thing which exists. It can feel all-consuming, but the truth is that it is only another sentiment. This too shall pass; and it always does. If you are going through a...
It never ceases to amaze me...
How i know what to do, and where i wanna go, but then also know how to drop everything and fall apart.
What i dont know is where i am, and how to pick myself up again. Maybe that’s what friends are for? But, then again, i can’t rely on them for everything…
And yet i kinda do. they’re kinda all i have. Perks of being an only child. Whoopdeedoo -_-
"Never have i ever..."
Today was pretty hectic…and weird. So Arielle calls me up, telling me to get ready in, like, 10 minutes because she’s sending over to come and get me. I mean, here i am, tumbling away, and then this girl calls me up and im still on the couch, looking like complete shit. So, Aaron and Alyssa come and pick me up and we were off. Honestly tho, i was so happy when i got there. Seeing all...
I hate how when we get too close your fingertips...
saintnate:
(via soularchitect)
“If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you’re sad, or unsure,...”
– P.S. I Love You (via littlemiss) (via kari-shma)
“In order to move on, you must understand why you felt what you did and why you...”
– The Five People You Meet in Heaven (via littlemiss) (via kari-shma)
“I love you. That’s my secret. No hearts. No pretty drawings. No poems or cryptic...”
– Postsecret (via littlemiss) (via kari-shma) (via lovebot)
“Someone you haven’t even met yet is wondering what it’d be like to know someone...”
– I Wrote This For You (via mirrorsandfevers) (via breathsoftruth) (via lovebot)
“Never mistake kindness for weakness. Never take advantage of another person’s...”
– Girlosophy (via littlemiss) (via kari-shma)
Super 25.
Rules: READ, FOLLOW, WRITE Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you. 1. I have no idea what my natural hair color is. I’ve dyed it so many times, im surprised my hair...
“I can’t promise to fix all your problems, but I can promise you won’t have to...”
– (via littlemiss) (via kari-shma)
Happy Birthday, Archiell!
Yet another one of my friends has turned 18. Damn! We’re all growing up so fast! Hahaha. But, Archiell, i know you will see this and i just hope that you have an AWESOME birthday, and that you make the most out of YOUR day. you are now able to buy lotto tickets, cigarettes, and porn! Not to mention, you are now unprovisionally licensed which means you can now drive all your minor friends...
And another one..
I haven’t gone out all day. It feels weird, i haven’t been a homebody in such a while. Im always running around doing something. It feels nice to just lay down on the couch and not do anything.
Wow, i just realized, im done with college apps. All i have to do is wait for my letter of acceptance/rejection and pray that the school i want to get into accepts me. Oh maaan, im kinda...
Post Secrets
I went to downtown the other day and my friend and i went inside urban outfitters. We stopped by where all the books were and started reading post secrets. it’s a book where people send in postcards of their own secrets and it’s totally anonymous. So, i started thinking, if i sent in a post card, what would my secret be? And then i thought, damn, i have so many secrets, i would need...
It just keeps coming...
Oh, the possibilites if only i had a car. For one thing, i’d drive my ass all the way to San Jose to see Joel, and start paying him back for all the times he sacrificed for me to come all the way here to San Francisco. I’d probably take a couple of friends and just take a random trip to Santa Cruz, just cause i haven’t been there in a while. Then maybe some lunch, or a movie, and...